Friends...Chapter 3 - Steve

Friends provide lots of emotions...happiness, peace, tranquility, harmony, love....but they also can provide a sense of sadness, loneliness, and state of confusion. Before I explain this, let me tell you about my friend Steve.

Steve came into my life not even a year ago. I met him through my friend Eddie (See Chapter 2). It was July 2008 and we were at a "White Party." Something told me that I really needed to get to know him. Steve and I began to correspond over MySpace, and finally we were able to get together on Halloween night for dinner. We were talking and found out we had many commonalities. One of the strongest connections was that we both were avid Brothers & Sisters fans. He asked me about getting together on Sunday evenings so we could watch it and discuss what was going on.

Steve has helped me with my spiritual side over the past few months has well. He introduced me to Neale Donald Walsch and Eckhart Tolle. He has enlightened me in a new perspective of looking at events and things that go on in life. He also knew me like a book. He knew when I was not "myself" and could sense something wasn't right...and he was usually right about this.

I know there was a reason Steve was put into my life. For New Year's, Steve, Eddie and I went to Chicago. It was on this trip that I realized that I had a deep emotion for them. No....nothing romantic....unless you want to call it a Bromance. I truly believe that Steve was put into my life to be my "big brother." Now, I do have actual blood related older brothers, however, Steve has done more for me since I have met him than my biological brothers have combined over my lifetime. I am able to talk with Steve about anything....and yes, I mean ANYTHING. Just a couple weeks ago, we made a trip to Louisville to go to a club. I had never been, and he had only been once or twice. I am very glad we got to spend this bonding time together.

This leads me into what I was writing about at the beginning of this blog. I am full of mixed emotions right now. As I am typing this blog, Steve is having his things packed in his apartment and is moving away from Evansville. He is moving to take a job in Kansas City. The sense of sadness and loneliness is there because I know I won't be able to jump in my car and drive over to his place on Sunday nights for Brothers & Sisters and enjoy Marble Slab....uh, I mean Coldstone Creamery. We won't be able to get together for dinner at Rafferty's (one of his favorite places) for a Backyard BBQ Burger. If I forget to DVR American Idol, I won't be able to catch up on it by seeing it on his DVR the weekend.

However I do have a strong sense of happiness at the same time. He is off to do much better things in his job. We still have Twitter, Facebook, e-mail, texting, and phone calls to keep us connected. When either I go to visit, or he comes back to visit, it will be even more special to spend time with my big brother.

I truly value the friendship I have with Steve.

It does pull at the heart strings when you can't see your friends, but they are still there with you no matter the distance. Until my next blog, continue to just be!